Poker Face

Thinking about all the things that go on around us and in us, I realize that we too often times become the poker faces that we put on. Not only are we outwardly inaccessible, we wall ourselves up on the inside as well so even those who SHOULD have access can get in.

Just a thought provoked by Lady Gaga of all people....

Favorite piece of today

BGA********: [misses adell]

Restless

Its 3:40am and I just cannot sleep.  My thoughts are completely taken up and the tv's watchin me, not the otherway around. I've only eaten once today and I had to be reminded that I was hungry, why am I so engulfed and enthralled by this man? What has he done to me that makes me feel like I do?  "Sprung" does not BEGIN to describe what this is! Its overwhelming, its consuming my sleeping time, and its making me forget to eat!

Here it is, a collection of LOVEly quotes...

Women wish to be loved not because they are pretty, or good, or well bred, or graceful, or intelligent, but because they are themselves. --Henri Frederic Amiel

A man asked his mother: "How can I find the right women for me?" and she answered, "don’t worry about finding the right woman, concentrate on becoming the right man."--unknown

Love is much like a wild rose, beautiful and calm, but willing to draw blood in its defense. --Mark Overby

Love is a gift from God, and as we obey His laws and genuinely learn to serve others, we develop God's love in our lives. Love of God is the means of unlocking divine powers which help us to live worthily and to overcome the world.--David B. Haight

I have found the paradox that if I love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love.--Mother Teresa

Love is like pi -- natural, irrational, and very important.--Lisa Hoffman

Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.--Robert Heinlein

Love is but the discovery of ourselves in others, and the delight in the recognition.--Alexander Smith

The last two perfectly reflect my methods of love, which is why they're my favorite :)

LMFMAO!!!!

So Far Away from my Comfort Zone

My life has been disrupted, taken somewhere wonderful then left at a dead end road only to find my way back seemingly alone. No wait, I'm not alone, those two idiots are over there arguing and ignorning me...

Thank you! You have made my day! (large dose of sarcasm)

Its just amazing what tests we are put through to make us more patient, responsible, logical, Christian people. To Ms. S: If you still think you need advice, DON'T try to get it from me.

My poor sick puppy!

He sick and running a fever and drinking water doesn't seem to be working fast enough!

What doesn't kill you....

Makes you retarded! lol just kidding, I learned, he learned, We're all happy. :)

State Fair!!!

So glad I'm back in Raleigh! State Fair is so great, going again Tuesday and Thursday...and Friday...lol Fried Snickers, Fried Pickles and Chocolate Covered Bacon!!! Cant ride the big fast scary rides yet cuz of the stitches :( but still fun to just walk around :)

Took FOREVER to track my company down but it was well worth it. SOOOO much fun goofing off and watching fireworks and freezing our fingers and asses off! lol I just can't wait to do it again.

Aftermath

The surgery went well but man do I look and feel wierd...lol so theres this thing hooked up to me thats draining excess fluids away from the operation site and it cant be removed until wednesday...who's volunteering to give me sponge baths til then? any takers? lol!!!

My throat feels really wierd and I was motion sick for the first time ever...

I asked Mommy if I would dream while I was in surgery and she said no but I DID!!! I was so excited cuz it was good dream too--we were out at the lake feeding the ducks and geese. :) It felt so real when I woke up I asked the nurse where you were! lol she just smile and asked "whos that hun?" lol

Nervous and Sparkly

One more day of work then surgery Monday, I'm starting to feel nervous...I don't know what to expect, I don't know how to feel right now I guess...I guess I'll figure it out soon...

In other news I feel kinda sparkly inside and I can't wait to go to the Fair!

Thank you GOD!

Mama was right when she said to just trust that He would bless immediately when I ask for the right things and do what He says! I got a 92 on my mid-term, I'm headed to work and I'm so full of joy I could burst! i'll be sure to pass this feeling on to all my customers today :)

Exam in the Morning!

Yay! I have a mid-term in the morning at then I go straight to work from there! Wish me luck in both places! I'm hoping for an A on the mid-term and a high productivity rate at work! For now, I'm going to listen to my new theme song--under wraps and TOP SECRET :) one more time and its off to bed for me! Super excited! Is it the last of the cold medicine that's got me feeling this way or something else? lol

;) :D :)

One of the biggest smiles on my face I've had in a while, thanks :) Well, its a little pale and sickly but thats cuz I'm, umm, pale and sickly at the moment...lol

Oh no!

I despise being in contact with more than 700 people every week...germs spread and apparently I'm the home of choice to the cold virus. This is like the 3rd of of this year! Stupid people and they're stupid germs sticking to they're stupid money and they're stupid hands touching my hands to buy they're stupid groceries... I don't like being sick!!!! I really hope its the flu so it can be over with in three days...colds take FOREVER to go away.....

Whatever, I only have one more week of work before I take a forced break via surgery and post-op bed rest. I just hope I'm not contagious on the 16th :)

Sleep Deprivation

Went to see Up at the dollar-fifty with Lena, very awesome movie, lots of adventure and fun and even a couple
"scares"...lots of life lessons too. I'm keeping myself awake for what reason I'm not sure; I think I'm still getting back used to being actually able to sleep and be rested in the morning...

 Events of the last 48 hours or so: Decided to leave T-mobile the heck alone and get US Cellular, so new blackberry yay!!! and it works EVERYWHERE in the house! hehehe. Left the cell phone store, got in the car and drove about 20 feet and my MUFFLER FELL THE FREAK OFF! $80 gone, just like that...had to get it welded back on, but of course not before leaving it overnight in a Wal-mart parking lot since I couldn't drive it til this morning when the aid of a coat hanger came to my temporary rescue. After the muffler the rest of the day kind of grinded itself to a screeching halt when I realized not only do I not have ANY  phone contacts anymore thanks to T-mobile, someone doesn't have MY number because of miscommunication. So what could have been a fun and/or relaxing day turned out to be a money draining boring day where the only high points were 1) I don't have to bother with the pink folks at tmobile anymore and 2) I really did thorougly enjoy the movie Up. Oh well, all in all, I've got my health, I've got my girls, and I've got my blessings, today was a good enough day. I will be focusing on making tomorrow a better one though.

Perfect Timing?

I think it is. It has to be, its easier said than done but prioritizing is the only thing left, everything else is actually falling into place and so fast its scary...