Oh God,

I have no idea what I'm doing anymore! My life is headed in a good direction career wise but everything else seems to be....uncertain. I want so badly to have the things in life that make life meaningful but I just feel like I'm missing something...I know I haven't been trying hard enough to build my relationship with Yod and I know that's what I'm missing...I'll read my bible tonight and I'm going to church Sunday morning.

Dreamworld

The color lyrics are my exact sentiments...


I would be you, you would be me, we would be one, we would be just fine
The ice caps wouldn't be melting and neither would I, mmh
I would just drive my big old car, and everything would be alright
And energy would just fall down right from the sky, yeah

Words would fly right from out of my mind, out of my mind into your heart, into your life
And everything would sound just right, and no one would stop me from drinking my wine

That's my dreamworld, that's my dreamworld, it's more than a dream
My dreamworld, that's my dreamworld, and I wanna live in my dream,

Oh the real world just don't feel right
I wouldn't spend my days searching for, searching for lost time, I wouldn't be so damn sensitive, I'd let things go by
No matter what the weather, I'd learn to change, I'd change with the time,

And everytime I need a woman, she'd appear right by me
She hold me tight, treat me right, and tell me that everything is gonna be, is gonna be alright, alright

That's my dreamworld, that's my dreamworld

I would tell Van Gogh that he was loved, there's no need to cry
I would say Marvin Gay your father didn't want you to die (dream)
There would be no black and white, the world just treat my wife right
We could down in Mississipi and no one would look at us twice,

That's my dreamworld, that's my dreamworld, it's more than a dream
That's my dreamworld, that's my dreamworld, and I wanna live in my dream

Soundtrack for the Last 5 to7 days

Flowers in Bloom Robin - Thicke
Russian Roulette - Rhinna
Somebody Come Get Me - Melanie Fiona
Take a Bow - Rhianna
Dreamworld - Robin Thicke
How Can You Mend a Broken Heart - Al Green

added a day later:

Complicated - Robin Thicke

Favorite Piece of Today

There isn't one.

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The Mirror of Erised

The cessation of unnecessary stress. A fully functional and cosmetically appealing 'Blondie.' A stable career that doesn't superimpose itself over my personal time with my family. In due time, a surname that is no longer 'Wade,' and a "belly full of baby." To be surrounded by those whom I love and love me the most.

I most desperately desire a life of peace and love and comfort.